What are we doing here?
What is the goal?
Why the struggle?
Does any of this matter?
What should I be doing differently?
I’m sitting in the rocking chair across from the love seat. My kids are watching The Jetsons on hulu.com. I was looking at them while they were looking at the screen. My gaze wandered from each kid while my mind wondered what really goes through their minds.
What will they be in a few short years?
Are they happy?
Will they embrace their lives?
Do they feel loved?
Are they thriving?
Are they getting enough of what they need while still understanding that they can’t have everything that they think they need.
Are they free to explore what they love?
Are they able to engage in relationships that teach them love, tolerance, acceptance while understanding that they can be hurt by those same relationships? Can they learn to work through those hurts and become stronger?
They each glanced at me a couple times. They’d smile and say, “love you”. They are content and safe. They aren’t being judged. They aren’t being tested.
There is plenty of the judging and testing in their young lives.
But right at this moment, they are free to be themselves.
As I watched them sitting side-by-side on the purple love seat, I realized exactly what the point is.
Jen and Will are the point.
Tags: child of narcissist, humor, life, love, NPD, proactive, survive
I’ve been thinking about you. Glad to see you’re having a few calm, peaceful, to-the-point moments.
Your kids know they are very loved and they have the most supportive mom ever! Our kids are always the point and we try to do what’s best for them always – no matter what it takes. You are an awesome mom and you know that!!!
Kath,
Thanks for that.
I know you always made yours a priority, too.
Sometimes the questions are the most important thing.
We can’t control outcomes but we can make good choices in the moment. Thinking about what we’re doing and why we’re doing it is part of living consciously.
Thanks for sharing these thoughts.
Siddhartha,
It’s nice to see you here.
Sometimes I think it’s the questions that get me out of bed every morning – the questions and the pursuit of the answers.
Thanks for commenting.
Yes, it’s all about the children. Even if you’re just one person in this world, you may be the world to one person.
Mike,
Indeed. And sometimes that one person can make all the difference for that child.