I’ve been writing here for over a year. Jen and Will know what the blog is about. Will keeps asking for permission to read the whole blog. He’s not ready for that.
They both know about narcissism.
I read some of the posts to them. I have read many of the comments to them. I want them to share in this process.
We’ve all come a long way because of the growth we’ve experienced due to this blog and the amazing comments, love and support that occur here.
My goal is to sell my own products through this site. The kids know about that. We have plans and dreams based on what I may be able to do here. Because of those plans and dreams, they often ask me how many folks are checking in on the site. They see me checking the stats for the blog, and they’ve witnessed the growth in the numbers of people who read.
In the beginning, they’d say, “Mom, how many hits today?”
I’d answer with, “27,” and we’d high-five. Then I’d say, “Hey, guys, 53 people found us today!”
We danced and sang when we hit 100.
There are a lot of hits in a day now. The kids still ask about the numbers. We still fist-bump when we set a new record.
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Today, Jen asked about the numbers. When I told her we were at a pretty large number, for this time of day on a Sunday, she looked at me thoughtfully and said, “Mom, that’s great, but it’s really sad.”
It is sad that there are people out there, reading about narcissism, on a Sunday close to Christmas.
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We’re sorry you came looking for us, but we’re glad you’re here.
Thanks for reading.
Tags: child of narcissist, divorce, life, narcissistic behavior, NPD, survive
Jesse,
I suspect that I speak not only for myself but for a “pretty large number” of people when I say “thanks” for making us feel a little bit pathetic! Especially so close to Christmas! LOL
But on a happy note I have met a really nice man who is definitely not a narcissist (sorry for the redundancy). I have been seeing him for a month. It is early, I know, but I am really optimistic.
My N-ex does not know that I am seeing somebody else yet. You may recall from my previous comments that my ex has been acting super-nice ever since we separated almost 7 months ago. I think he has been acting nice in hopes that I will think he has changed and that I will take him back. It will be interesting/scary to see how his attitude will change when I tell him that I am seeing someone else. I will let you know how that goes when it happens. Ugh!
Hugs to you and yours
Hey Reese,
How exciting that you are seeing someone. He’s a lucky guy. Isn’t it great to be with someone who enjoys your company?
Pathetic? NEVER. Searching for answers/getting an education/making sense of the bizarre/taking charge of life …. All those apply, but NEVER PATHETIC.
Shees. I was there. I wasn’t pathetic. I was lost in the dark.
And, you? Ha! Never!
Happy Holidays ; )